I’ve been focusing on a new creative project. Plenty of energy and enthusiasm being spent. A lot of productive time making something new. Bouncing my ideas away from others within a coaching group. But each and every time I embark on a brand new journey of producing, I’ve found myself becoming angry.
Each and every this happen? What exactly is this anger about? The proceedings?
My mentor and i also were discussing this. She wondered aloud this thought: “It appears like the tender spots are where you stand angry”… yeah. Very tender. The anger is telling me something.
Discovering that it is hard to keep a task picking anger throughout, I desired to find away out to be effective “through” or “around” the anger. So, I distract myself with painting, stories, dancing… something creative, but more mundane and a bit mindless. This creative energy frees my mind so that I could “trick” my anger into thinking I will be busy along with other things.
When I do that I think of it as “spinning”. Spinning reminds me in the stories of the spinning wheel where I could get busy creating (much like the wool about the wheel). This opens the door to metaphor and takes me faraway from my should “control” an undertaking.
When I began drawing this image… of a spinning wheel… I figured of “turning straw to gold”. I had been reminded again in the story of Rumpelstilskin. You realize, the main one… the millers daughter, the dad says “she can spin straw into gold” for the king… along with the king wants to check out this… and when she cannot, she will go to death… ? Then, an odd little man appears. He tells her they can spin straw into gold… however it will show up at a cost to her.
I found the storyplot and study several versions than it. It resonated beside me. However, when i usually do, I attempted to logically “organize” the storyline. This caused me being more frustrated, while i had not been seeing or feeling what this story was wanting to inform me.
I really returned to my “dream capture” work. I just read the tale as though it were a goal I had created had. Then, I did these:
Listed out all the characters
Listed your “key words” inside the story that resonated with me
Re-read each word and wrote what that word meat in my opinion within my current situation
And after that… I started to see what are the story was saying. Here is what I discovered
The miscroscopic man (Rumplestilskin)=anger/creative fire/naming
The miller’s daughter=rest/creativity/giving
The king=accountability
Spnning wheel=creating/spinning/asking for help
The baby=creation (project, artwork… )
While each of these “characters” posseses an independent role, Every one of the characters create one “psyche” personally. Just about everyone has of these qualities within us.
To make something, it requires much energy… and much rest can be needed. We should give of ourselves and order help.
In the long run, a baby arrives and we will not give it up. It is our “creation” and we’re surprised about that which you made. Also, what must be done to acquire there.
What did I learn?
Until this story resonates when camping. Also, this story will repeat itself again and again as I carry on and create, rest, other people and finish a project. Though Rumpelstilskin stomps himself in the ground after the storyline, that little man will be back… and next time, I’ll know his name.
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